Love Letter – No. 2
It is a strange thing how we eventually came to be. We danced around each other for years. You weren’t ready. Then I wasn’t ready. Then I was and you changed your mind. I got bored and you got interested. Then you got bored and I got lonely. Our friends teased us about it. But, we always stayed close. I cared about you and you cared about me. We got older. We grew up and we still stayed close. We started spending more time together and we had fun. Nothing dramatic. We knew everything about each other and understood all those things that usually kept us both single for so long. You need your space and I need mine. But, there is a look you give me when there is something you need from me and I know exactly what it means. It is extremely subtle and no one else could understand it, but I do – and I don’t even really know why.
I don’t know exactly when I knew I was in love with you for the first time. Maybe because you’re so subtle and complex it took me years just to know much beyond your surface. And I couldn’t be in love with you until I got deeper. You don’t let anyone deep and I only got there over many years and after I had stopped trying. I don’t know when I knew what your looks meant either. I just knew.
Sometimes you’re really hard on me. But, never in a way that anyone else would know. We’ve never been that couple other couples leave the party talking about. You’re not dramatic and never have been and I’m to old for it now.
Even though you can be hard on me you project a strange unconditional love towards me and it seems so deep I still don’t know where it comes from. I am confident yet certainly vulnerable. And sometimes your love for me surprises me and I wonder why I deserve it. It is funny though because it is always hidden from public view. Even your intense love for me is a part of your subtlety. Some people might think you are cold, but they don’t understand that they couldn’t handle the emotion under your core. It’s too powerful. And you downplay yourself too much anyway. You don’t give yourself enough credit. I mean, jeez, you have to put up with me!
Well, my darling after 13 years together there is really no reason for this note. Except I had a long day and I greatly appreciate you rubbing my head while we sit in silence because you understand my look when I need your help too. I don’t know how it happened, but we eventually came together and it was meant to be. Two strange and subtle people living in our overly unsubtle world. I would say I love you, but it goes unsaid.